SONG CONTEST 2008 *Make That Change*

What a beautiful day! I'm a rich man!

Couldn't say about today nothing but "What a wondelful day". A brand new start. Can't be grateful enough with life and to everyone involved the magic that happened yesterday.
Even thou the last day of April here in London was on of the darkest and rainiest I've experienced in a long time. Brought with it all the magic to make it "One of the happiest days of them all"

All started pretty normal, woke up early and headed to the gym. Wasn't very keen on the idea of leaving the comfort of my bed in such a dull day but there were some practical changes that decided to take to improve the quality of my life.

1.- To make the effort to exercise more often, at least 3 times a week
2.- To spend less time at home. Since I've been working from home all this time. Life had become a little secluded and boring.
3.- To take care of my health and eat much more healthier. eating fruit and more of the green stuff.

So after the gym, headed to the new "Coffee Republic" that just opened few days ago in Queensway, London. Met great people and at the end managed to spend at least 5 hours, working on the computer, drinking coffee and chatting with all the employees.
Don't understand why it took so long for me to realize that simple changes make a HUGE differance in the world and life.
Working on my blog and revising the document sent to Eckhart Tolle few days ago, was the way the day went by. Nothing really big or of huge importance so far had happened, but my day was full of baby, children, mums and dads, office workers and tourists smiles. And that by it self made a huge difference in the world to such a rainy day.

Then it came the out of nowhere the news that will give the biggest turn to my life. I was given the money and hence the opportunity to make iSportYou.com a reality. WOW!!! yeah! fuck yeah!!!!!!!!! phew, I'm speechless.

This came into my life in a completely unexpected way and when it was most needed

- My two credit cards were full to the top
- had no money whatsoever to pay my rent
- The bank had been charging me hundreds of pounds for going overdraft on my account
- the checking account was £200 over the limit
- No cash even to buy food
- Had no job

But I was not worried. I trusted 100% something would happen, had some plan Bs prepared in case some action was needed, for example:

- Knowing that I couldn't pay my rent, decided to let my landlord know the situation and asking to give me one more month and take the rent from the deposit.
- Sent an application to "Gaia House" to work as a gardener for a Buddhist community in Devon.
- Decided to start looking for a job in personal training and Reiki healing.

And with this all changed. I can only say THANK YOU!!!!!!!
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The EdB Chronicles,"FEELING GOOD MUSIC iMix"

TO VISIT: The EdB's HIV Chronicles website CLICK HERE

Music for me, has the magical power of to transmute the atmosphere it touches. In this case I'd like to share with you a list that I've been putting together with a compilation of songs that have filled my soul with its wonderful energy at some point or another in my life. My playlist contains a lot more songs but itunes don't reconized them all to be put them on iMix. Send me an email if you'd like to know the complete list.

I'd like to extend a special greatitude note to "Lara Fabian". She entered my life, in a totally amazing and unexpected way; whose music has accompanied me every day since my rebirth on the 21st of October, 2007. I wrote an email to her, but every time I try to send it to her production company or record company is been returned to me. I'll be eternally grateful If you can help this email find its way to her. This is the email. (There's an updated note at the end of the email that I attached yesterday, when I got the results back).

The EdB Chronicles, The 1st results

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TODAY, APRIL 16, 2008

I called to get my results and... without their treatment and completely contradicting the Dr's predictions (as they don't know yet that I stop treatment after only one week of had started it) who told me that whatever happens, that this would be the first test and that I couldn't expect a huge improvement,
And today at 3:33pm local time in London, I got my results back with guess what, 205: it went from 106 to 205 the cd4 count in less than a month.

With this and with the test results to follow, I'm planning to built a case to show the truth about HIV and hopefully many more people dying at this moment from the same false diagnose, will realize that they are NOT sick start living and be happy and full of love once again.
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH US

ed B

The EdB Chronicles, day one

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Video blog on the day I went to have my first blood test taken after one month of starting my treatment (or so they think)

The EdB Chronicles, an HIV Stumble

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Here you'll be able to follow the days and weeks after the "Big News" when I realize there is no killing virus, but killing treatments, ideas and life-styles.
2 years after been given a positive diagnosis, I decided to stop dying and start living.... The story of my life and ONE big decision.

I now believe that HIV is NOT the cause of Aids; A death sentence given with the promise of a not too bad future with the help of a chemotherapy like treatment that kills faster than it heals.

After so many days and nights into the deepest depression I've known. Where my career, my love life, my life at whole ended. I Needed to die to realize that no diagnosis was going to kill me. Strogle, until that faithful moment when I found out about the "Big News" and with that I got my life and the control over my own health back to me.

My intention with this is just to show that it can be done and is POSSIBLE to be 100% healthy... I don't mean FEEL healthy but to BE... Not mambo-jambo, no pills, no treatments, but reality and that's what I'm planning to do to prove with facts the truth about HIV/AIDS.

TO SEE MY STORY

FRIDAY 26- OCTOBER-2007

My Today intentions: Friday, October 26, 2007. 8:29am.

My Most important and intense intention I have for today is: To have the most happy and rewarding day I’ve had in a long time. I intend to go through this day going with the flow, feeling the joy and spreading love and compassion in all actions and moments and to all people. From the moment I’m writing my day with almost tears in eyes for the emotion and gratitude that this idea gives me to the moment I closed them again to fall asleep tired and happy for the most fantastic day, the memories and the immense gratitude I feel.
Thank You for today!

To do list:
1. Wash my dirty cloths
2. Pick up my passport
3. Pay in my account the check I have for over a month.
4. Pick up my trousers from Prada
5. Cut my hair
6. Buy the piece of luggage
7. Get something for my mum’s birthday

My today’s song is: Flying without wings, by Westlife
Lyrics:
Verse 1:
Everybody's looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Verse 2:
Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lover's eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Verse 3:
Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You'll find it in the works of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

Verse 4:
You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings

Verse 5:
So, impossible as they may seem
You've got to fight for every dream
Cause who's to know which one you let go
Would have made you complete

Verse 6:
Well for Me, It's waking up beside you
To watch the sunrise on your face
To know that I can say I love you
In any given time or place

Verse 7:
It's little things that only I know
Those are the things that make you mine
And it's like flying without wings
Cause you're my special thing
I'm flying without wings

Verse 8:
And you're the place my life begins
and you'll be where it ends
I'm flying without wings
And that's the joy you bring
I'm flying without wings

THE ONE YEAR INTENTION with Visualizations

ONE YEAR INTENTION: I feel I need to put a 1 year goal as my mid-term goal. I now put my intention forward: In one year time, that means that for the 24 October 2008, my business Isportyou will be launching and opening doors, welcoming prosperity, security and my whole life has had turned around completely. Enjoying the beauty and the comfort of a new happy, productive and successful new life. Full of new confidence, a new understanding of mission in this world. Happy and grateful for all I have and all I am, loving and respecting my body and my soul.

Feeling one with my creator and living to serve, to love and to help.
In peace with myself and with others, free of guilts and fears. I let go all that I didn't need in my new life and intent to live a life that is full, rewarding, abundant, with all the love in the world, prosperous, grateful, healthy AND HAPPY, VERY HAPPY!!

VISUALIZATION 1 of the one year Intention: I see myself sitting in my office talking with the people, the team, everyone that has made ISportYou what is and will be. ISPORTYOU,CO.UK "Reaching for the stars". I can see people reaching and joining, more and more every time. We all make it possible just by working all together, In Connection!

You know? “That Thing” that nobody knows what is that I have: is LOVE. I have been sending you love in anyway I could since day one, with my voice, with my eyes, with my movements, my body heat! I don’t know what or how that happened but it did HAPPENED and now you are looking at THIS that is my way of thanking each and everyone of YOU! for working with me and making all this is happening.
NOW IS THE TIME! …But tell me: Now, WHAT OR WHO ARE YOU GOING TO SPORT !!!

LIFE IS HERE TO DO WITH IT WHAT YOU WANT. WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT!!! IF YOU DON’T KNOW, DREAM!!! THAT PROBABLY WILL GIVE YOU GOOD IDEAS, FOLLOW THEM ALL.

GOD AND I BLESS YOU ALWAYS
THANK YOU FOR YOUR BLESSINGS
THANK YOU FOR WORKING TOGETHER AS A UNIVERSE
THANK YOU FOR YOUR LOVE
THANK YOU FOR MAKING A BETTER WORLD
THANK YOU.

A New Beguining, October 2007

"The Secret" "The Law of Attraction". A day by day diary some times weeks, hope not monthly. How does it work? this is my history:

Yesterday, after trying to keep sleeping for much longer, but without success and feeling frustrated for the malfunction of my electricity system, which was causing me not be able to take a shower. I started to look around, desperate, going in circles like a "chained dog", for something to do. There were no more drugs of any kind, didn't fancy going out to get even wine. Felt alone and ridiculous, but hey! I've been getting used to that idea for a while now.
So with the mind completely empty and bored, I suddenly focus on the xmas present my brother gave me last year or so: The Tarot cards from Osho. I used to like all the esoteric and paranormal, on times I used to like many things as well, but thought what the heck, lets see what they have to say.
Gave a quick look into the instructions booklet to remind me how the whole think works, immediately went to the formation part; how, the position they are placed and the meaning. Sow the design I used to do when I just got them. A form of a cross with good and bad, present and future, I thought: not again...boring, next!, and next happened to be one in the form of a V or bird, and I thought: right! travel, change, cool this could work; I want change, I'm about to travel to Mexico for the first time in 5 years, I’, sick and tired of feeling depressed, sad, alone; I’m tired of feeling sorry and guilty for the life I had so far, tired of not having a proper job, and not having a full and happy life. So, Yes! This formation works. I started to mix the cards and suddenly saw on a random page of the booklet still open in front of me the text: ASK THEM WHAT EVER YOU WANT TO KNOW, as one advice to how to deal with the information exchanged with the set of cards.
Thought about few questions, typical ones, what about the trip, but with out a certain idea of what would I like to know, so I asked: Tell me what ever I need to know right now. And the reading went like this: CLICK HERE TO SEE THE READING

Day 5 "Fun & Recreation"

If there's something in life we should never be without is fun, we should have fun with everything we do, from work to love, from Creating to accepting, from giving to receiving, all should be surrounded by fun.
We change the energy of the world with an honest smile, we can softhen the hardest of the hearts and ease the most difficult of the situations.

DAY 4 "Home & Family"

What can I say about my place? I’ve had so many in so many ways, from a hole in the ground to a castle in the sky. But can I honestly call them “My home”? I’m not that sure. Have been places where I can go and hide from the exterior world, places I’ve been offered to sleep and call home but never really felt them as MY home. I believe a home should be the place that is full of your energy and personality, a place that reflects your own essence, a place that has been built with care and time.
Difficult task this one, I’ll keep updating it….


However about my family, I can say so much. We have gone through very difficult times together, taking path that may seem to defer from each other but at the end we always come together again.
And if something I admire about my family is the capacity of change and evolve to a better being.
The Family is the group of people you should rely on, on hopes and emotions, to be there with you at all times, good or bad with out judging. Not always easy, as human beings we take pride of our individuality but there are connections to difficult to brake, not impossible thou.I’m very happy with the family I’ve chosen to live with and the life I have lived with them so far.

DAY 3 "Finance"

I never used to be good with finances, no wonder why, personally I WAS always pretty low on them.

So far on day 1 &2 I have focus on what the present and past mean or meant to me. Now to change a little the route I want to focus on what I want, the freedom of being independent and solvent. The material ambitions I have, the places and things I want to surround myself with. But first a bit of history:

As a child and for as long as I can remember I imagine myslef in Europe and dreamt with a luxury lifestyle, with limos and champagne brunches, a closet full of Versace and Gucci clothing, Cartier and Louis Vuitton and can proudly say I had it all, and here you can see again the incredible law of attraction working day and night to make all your dreams come true.

I never though thou about working or earning a great salary using all my talents and feel so satisfied that would give great pleasure and prosperity. No, I just wanted to enjoy the goods and guess what! It worked.
Now I’m not sure if that worked for the best or for the worse, as now having achieved all I ever dreamt with out any delay what so ever, I find myself asking “Now, what’s next” I never dreamt about what I would do once I get the lifestyle I had or dreamt about having it constantly in my life. I was just concentrated on obtaining it.

So now I’m all my energy is targeted to the idea of Building my future with an clear image of what material things I want to have and surrounded with and the happiness I’m getting from this process.

I have come to realize as the days passes how all the aspects in life are interconnected to each other: health and well being with self esteem connected with family and security etc. I’m sure you agree with me.
3 days working on the aspects of life with the same importance and dedication have come to see how life is like going to the gym and working only one muscle group; for example: The ABS just because you desperately want that six pack you have dreamt about, as a personal trainer I can tell you that will only lead to a terrible unbalance resulting in back injuries. To much support on the front will put to much pressure on the back. The same happens in life, too much attention to one aspect let’s imagine Self esteem, will make you a very self centred and egocentric. What do think?

DAY 2 "Security"

And the real challenge begins here. Tackling the security matter is not easy for me as only recently I’ve discovered so many ways I’ve found to try to satisfy this necessity.

*First and foremost has been with food.*
I’ve discovered food, as culture since we are babies, the first thing parents do when a baby cry is stuck the bottle of milk in your mouth, no matter if you’re crying because you feel lonely and want attention or because the initial pleasure after wetting the nappy has turned into a nasty experience. Doesn’t matter you’ll end up with food in your mouth.
And my family is no different, from babies to adults all the problems are resolved with food; “Comfort food” as commonly known. If you want to make someone feel special, there’s no better way than to prepare their favourite dish, or if you feel depressed there’s nothing better than “Quesadillas” in my case or Ice cream.

Therefore I have lived my life in a constant battle with weight and food. Finding depressing I couldn’t achieve the body I wanted always turned to food for comfort. You can either relate to this or finding it completely absurd but is true. So in this new facet of my life I decided to take food as for what it is: the magical source of nutrients that my body, mind and spirit needs for living a healthy life, and not as a substitute for something else I’m missing in my life, call it attention, self esteem, love, adventure, etc.

*Second has been relationships.*
Here lies one of the fundamentals of my life, and you’ll understand why the image of I’ve chosen to represent this point.
I lacked a loving, understanding or even friendly father figure in my childhood. Never thought this could turn to be such a deep problem for me as I always thought I manage well during that time. But now as time goes by and see the patterns in my life I have come to realize I’ve always found a father figure with my partners, giving them the complete responsibility for my well being and happiness. Turning myself into a submissive “house wife”. But never that submissive as I always had the ambition to be independent and have and cover all my need. But never was an easy task, combination of poor self esteem and liking having someone taking care of me, as soon as I started the process of independence I abandon it and came back to the arms of my lover. I appreciate and I’m deeply grateful, I really got all I wanted, sometimes behaving like a extremely demanding teenager or as a sophisticated partner.
So, from now on I’ve decided to take my relationships for what they are, mutual companionship, understanding. I will take care of my life first and not to expecting some else to take care of it for me.

Now is the time to ask myself:
What can I do now to start making progress in this matter and motivate the change into a totally secure life?
1.- Apply the 3 question filter to my meals (talk about them yesterday). Even if you’re thinking “you can't question the food” let me tell you, Yes I can! And it’s easy, just asking for example: This ice cream helps me be better person: Maybe NOT if I’m alone and bored on a Friday evening. Maybe YES if I’m with friends walking in the park on a beautiful sunny day.

2.- AFIRMATION:

LOVING TREATMENT

By Louise L. Hay
Deep at the centre of my being there is an infinite well of love.
I now allow this love to flow to the surface.
It fills my heart, my body, my mind, my consciousness, my very being, and radiates out from me in all directions and returns to me multiplied.
The more love I use and give, the more I have to give, the supply is endless.
The use of love makes me feel good; it is an expression of my inner joy.
Yes, I love myself, therefore I take loving care of my body.
I lovingly feed it nourishing food and beverages.
I lovingly groom it and dress it and my body lovingly responds to me with vibrant health and energy.
I love myself, therefore I provide for myself a comfortable home, one that fills all my needs and is a pleasure to be in.
I fill the rooms with the vibration of love so that all who enter, myself included, will feel this love and be nourished by it.
I love myself, therefore I work at a job that I truly enjoy doing, one that uses all my talents and abilities, working with and for people that I love and love me, and earning a good income.
I love myself, therefore, I behave in a loving way to all people for I know that that which I give out returns to me multiplied.
I only attract loving people in my world for they are a mirror of what I am.
I love myself, therefore I forgive and totally release the past and all past experiences and I am free.
I love myself, therefore I love totally in the now, experiencing each moment as good and knowing that my future is bright, and joyous and secure, for I am a beloved child of the universe and the universe lovingly takes care of me now and forever more.
And so it is.

DAY 1 "Health & Well Being"

First Day, God! That sounds exciting and a bit terrifying too I have to admit. But Today is an easy task. Health & Well Being is my area of expertise.

As a Certified Personal Trainer, I know how to increase my metabolism and reduce my resting heart rate. Which foods help to achieve the goals I’m looking for and which one are better to leave for the “Day off” if necessary, etc.

Also I got the privilege to have been in touch with Kundalini Yoga and its community. This will bring to my life the necessary tools to work with my body, mind and spirit in a fantastic and almost magical experience.

As a Sagittarius and sport enthusiast, I’ll have the pleasure to choose my favourite sports and activities and make them a most.

Now is the time to start asking myself:

What changes need to be done to be able every single day to get closer to my ideal state of “Health and Well Being”?

To make sure that every activity in this and all categories to follow will actually get me closer to my Goals and Ideals. I'd like to apply the a 3 question filter before I add them into a tasks.

Do this change/ activity/ process/ etc :

1. FEELS GOOD IN MY GUT, IN MY HEART WHEN I THINK OF IT?

2. HELPS ME BE A BETTER HUMAN BEING?

3. REALLY HELP ME GET CLOSER TO MY GOALS?

With this I’m sure this can only end in success.

My TASKS for Today (I'll keep filling this up during the day)

1. To live my life SMOKE and RECREATIONAL DUGS FREE

2. Practice 20 min CardioVascular activity at least 4 times a week

3. To practice at least for this 30 days the meditation I know for changing the chemestry of my blood and strengthening my inmune system (I'll describe it at the end)

4. Realize that food is an escential part to keep my body healthy and have a good relationship with it (I'll take this pont again in Security & Selfsteem)

5. Use 5 min a day my powerbreath ® to imporove my lung capacity and diaphram control which be very useful on day 12

Notes at the end of the day:

I'm very happy, not only I've manage not to smoke a single cigarette but didn't feel the need. I will start my meditation tomorrow morning when everybody is sleep and have more of a quite time. I'm not only feeling happy for the process I'm feeling the change taking place. LGBWUA

THE PROCESS

To choose activities or a states of mind, (this can be maybe an affirmation or a constant image in my mind) that I will concentrate only and exclusively during that day and will help me achieve my goals.

I have put this categories in order of importance TO ME, (IF YOU’D LIKE TO FOLLOW THIS PROGRAM YOU NEED TO CHANGE THE ORDER DEPENDING ON YOUR VERY OWN SCALE OF VALUES. Most important at the begining less important at the end)

Day 1 (in my case) will be for be for “Health and Well Being” as Day 12 will be for “Relationship” This will give my first selection the chance to be worked for 30 days and reviewed twice on day 13 and day 25, and my last selection (as important as the first but with less prerogative) will be worked 18 days and reviewed only once more.
Of course this can be a way of life and continue it for as long as I want. This is the TEST now, to change my life.

MAY GOD BE WITH ALL OF US

IMAGINE

Health and Well Being

Security

Finance

Home and Family

Fun & Recreation

Self Esteem

Energy

Friendship

Achivements

Contentment

Work and Career

Relationship

30 Days of total Evolution and self Discovery

I want to invite you to experience with me this 30 days of total change and evolution into the life I want to live. 30 days of applying all the knowledge and experience I’ve gathered during this 35 years of living in this body.

You’ll find a lot of resembles with different practices and ideologies,
from yoga to quantum physics.
First I want to take the aspects of my life I’ll target during this
30 days and they are in order of importance:

• Health and Well being


• Security


• Finance


• Home and Family


• Fun & Recreation


• Self Esteem


• Energy


• Friendship


• Achivements


• Contentment


• Work and Career


• Relationship

Now I have to put an Image to all the aspects. An Image that represent and
get as close as possible to the reality I want to live. This is the moment to DREAM AND IMAGINE

1. How happy and satisfied I want to be, with my body, mind & spirit?


2. What I want to achieve?


3. Where do I want to enjoy it?


4. What do I want to be doing, how and where?


5. How many people and what kind will be surrounding me?


6. How I want them to be?


7. What will make me feel totally secure?


8. How will I feel, ecstasy of being alive, fulfilled about what I have and
   achieved?


9. How do I want to feel about me, myself my body?


10. How much do I want to have fun and enjoy. Holidays and adventures?


11. How close my family be with me, and what kind of relationship?


12. Who will be the person to be around me, to love me and to cherish me?


13. How will my finances be, how prosperous, how will my bank account look?
    
    

*HURT*

I BELIEVE I CAN FLY

by Eduardo Blanco

December 1998

That's it!, I was searching inside, looking for the best definition of what I think and believe, but the phrase " I believe I can fly" says it all. We all have the power to do what ever we want, but the only rule in this game is that you really have to want it and believe that you can have it. And you will. God, the Cosmos, the Universe or whatever name you want to give to the power which switches on everything in this time life, is evident. Like most people in the hispanic world I was educated under Christianity, now I JUST BELIEVE IN GOD under no religion.I believe that everyone chooses his own parents at the begining of his life, the parents and the kind of life, that will help us to grow spiritualy and personally. Therefore, everything that happened in our lives was supposed to be there and happen. We only have to understand it, to accepte it, and try very hard to know why it happened. What do we have to learn from that experience, good or bad does not matter, it has a hidden lesson to be learnt.

Discover what is the purpose of this life, why are we here, what do we have to do, to feel that ecstasy of being alive. Well a lot of people have that question in mind, even I sometimes ask again, "why" or " what for" and sometimes there is no answer to those questions. Maybe that is what I have to learn from it, that there is not an answer to every question.There are always going to be questions, sometimes with answers, sometimes not, but we have to keep looking, searching, asking; and some day all our doubts will disappear and we will begin to see the light. Sometimes I have seen people who are in search of answers, get confused, and after sometime, have more questions than when they started. That's no reason to stop searching, maybe its just not the way for them. We have to keep looking, keep failing, that will give us the strength to keep going.

There is another tip that I have learned. When you do not feel that emotion of been alive, if what you are doing does not fullfill your needs, CHANGE!! do not think about it; follow your intuition, ask yourself, not everyone around you. YOU and only you have the answers to all your questions. WE ARE PERFECT; because we are God, God is inside of us, we are here to learn, then one does not have to fell guilty because one fails, or one wants to change when everybody else is telling you that you can't.

Life is like a theater, a few actors and a lot of spectators. That means that if you start doing what you believe and want, there is always someone who is going to tell you that you are wrong, people will criticise you. Just keep going, that will stop. When you pay no attention to those people, they will stop talking, because normally, they do not have a life of their own and try to live another's.If you believe, you will fly; BELIEVE... I do!Love everybody, everything, bad, good, ugly, beautiful, everything... I do!Respect. We all have different ways to see life, don't try to make your way, the way for everyone.Be grateful, because, we are here and this is the best day of our lives.

I Believe I can Fly!

Wow, My first Lyrics

Monday 26, Jun 2006.... I wrote my first lyrics in english, I like them even thou I can see I need to work more on them, but here they are:

Walk with me
Lyrics by Edu B

Roads can look so long
when walked by one alone
Felling the strain of hardness
feeking so lonely all the way

I want you to walk by my side
only that way, I'll finish my way

There's no need of painfull memories
all that the past brough along
now's gone, never to hurt us... no more

(chorous)
Tell me that you'll love me, like you did
Tell me that you'll never walk away from me
Tell me alll I need to hear,
that you'll walk this road with me