A New Beguining, October 2007

"The Secret" "The Law of Attraction". A day by day diary some times weeks, hope not monthly. How does it work? this is my history:

Yesterday, after trying to keep sleeping for much longer, but without success and feeling frustrated for the malfunction of my electricity system, which was causing me not be able to take a shower. I started to look around, desperate, going in circles like a "chained dog", for something to do. There were no more drugs of any kind, didn't fancy going out to get even wine. Felt alone and ridiculous, but hey! I've been getting used to that idea for a while now.
So with the mind completely empty and bored, I suddenly focus on the xmas present my brother gave me last year or so: The Tarot cards from Osho. I used to like all the esoteric and paranormal, on times I used to like many things as well, but thought what the heck, lets see what they have to say.
Gave a quick look into the instructions booklet to remind me how the whole think works, immediately went to the formation part; how, the position they are placed and the meaning. Sow the design I used to do when I just got them. A form of a cross with good and bad, present and future, I thought: not again...boring, next!, and next happened to be one in the form of a V or bird, and I thought: right! travel, change, cool this could work; I want change, I'm about to travel to Mexico for the first time in 5 years, I’, sick and tired of feeling depressed, sad, alone; I’m tired of feeling sorry and guilty for the life I had so far, tired of not having a proper job, and not having a full and happy life. So, Yes! This formation works. I started to mix the cards and suddenly saw on a random page of the booklet still open in front of me the text: ASK THEM WHAT EVER YOU WANT TO KNOW, as one advice to how to deal with the information exchanged with the set of cards.
Thought about few questions, typical ones, what about the trip, but with out a certain idea of what would I like to know, so I asked: Tell me what ever I need to know right now. And the reading went like this: CLICK HERE TO SEE THE READING