I don't want ever to forget how easy was to become the human I was ment to be from the very begining, even thou right now it looks not so easy, I'm sure one day I'll look back and smile and cry for all I got; all I lost but most important for all I am. Eduardo, 6/26/2006
Is it better to turn a blind eye than to question any predefined and widely accepted "CONCEPT OR BELIEF" by society and/or your network of friends and family... for ONE simple reason: FEAR???
-Fear to NOT be accepted -Fear to be rejected -Fear to the unknown -Fear to death -Fear to the truth
IS THIS REALLY A BETTER OPTION ??? WHAT DO YOU THINK??
-Why are we whispering when we should be talking openly? -Why are we happy, when millions still die just because they MIGHT be sick? -Why do we feel safe if the whole world is against everything & everyone? Fighting for lost causes. Angry for not conquering. forgetting that to conquer DEATH, We only have to DIE !!! -Why is this happening? -Why ??? -WHY ???
I see myself surrounded by people, we're dancing and having a party. People have learnt, to respect and care for their own. I see people knowing and joining the party. I see communities together. I see strangers communicating and bonding with each other. I see iSportYou in everybody tongue. I see iSportYou on TV. I see people joining. I see people participating. I see people giving. I see people healing. I see prosperity all over. I see abundance all over. I see love all over. I see Love all over. I see LOVE all over !!! Waje Guru !!! xXx
This is a copy sent to Dr Jill Bolte Taylor, Ph. D. describing my death experience. And now I want to share it with you. I think in a time of terrible stress and bad news, a Love story could serve as good news. What you think? This happened exactly one year ago, here in London...
Dear Dr Jill,
I would like to share with you the details of my "Stroke of insight" or what I call "The light at the end of the tunnel" in the Email to Eckhart, is very similar to what you describe when you are having the stroke, later found to be a tumor.
In my case, all started by feeling suddenly, a total disconnection to the external word in all senses, and then by starting to lose control over my body, but I was still very much conscious and making sense. I was still thinking and in control of my thoughts but what I was feeling was totally different to anything I have experienced before.
Suddenly felt like I was part of the whole room. All looked as made of the same material. No shadows but I could still distigush forms. Also hear and feel temperature but even though I could hear and feel, it was the same as with the sight. All was the same but distinguishing forms. Can't explain.
Then, felt it... I'm dying!... just knew it. It all clicked. Felt like a moment beyond mind. This is death and I'm about to go back home.
Fear started to take over and a terrible feeling of sadness overpower me. I didn't want to die!!!. And then, I could only think about my mother. -How sad would she be to see me dead like this. My room was very untidy and dirty, I hadn't showered in days, had been doing drugs for months and hated the fact of have finished my life like that. A looser.
I didn't know what to do, but I knew I needed to do something if I wanted to live or at least die fighting. I was not prepared to give up just like that. Started to get into a very calm and sad panic. And then I thought, -if I can hear sounds like banging the bed or clapping my hands, would I be able to listen to music?. All this was happening submerge in this homogenous world of oneness and absolute physical weakness. All colors blended but the forms were there. All sounded the same but distinguished different sounds and volumes and could feel temperature and texture.
The only thing I could do was, at least send a message to my mother, saying that I died in peace, that I love her so much and that I was sorry. The message could simply be, playing any of the mantras my mother has given me for meditation in my laptop and make it loop, so I can be found with it playing. I thought.
How was I going to do that? No idea. I could hardly move, my body, my arms felt so heavy and all my movements were tiny and stupid. It felt almost impossible to get up from bed, so I just started to push my legs first, then my upper body and then the hips. And like this, I made my way to the other side of the bed where my laptop was, probably moved no more that a meter but felt like a marathon. Once in front of the computer, a new challenge. I couldn't see the mouse, couldn't see the keyboard nor the screen. Nothing! All was the same. It was a white and smokish energy. Like a pixel room. All blended together, furniture, air and space.
Then I thought... -I will have to put the music and guide my hand by memory. I needed to remember if the program was on, if not, all was lost... Tried to remember, how would it look like on the screen, - I was crying, - Couldn't remember.
Started to move my finger over the pad and clicking all over, but nothing was happening. I prayed and asked for one more chance. Calmed myself down and started all over again by moving my finger and hopping the mouse was moving to the upper-right corner too. And then imagined the screen and took it from there.
It was a timeless moment that took for ever. Then, little by little, I started to loose more and more ability to move and to distinguish forms and textures. I knew the end was getting closer. I remember talking to myself, like the father I never had. - "Come on boy!, You can do it!.... Don't give up!, I know you can!, please... You're almost there. I'm here with you! I love you!"
And suddenly.... I clicked something and a beautiful music started to play. A mantra!. I was so happy, I was ready to die. I have never been so proud of my self like that day - And I cried... again, but this time of happiness and fulfillment, I have achieved the most important task of my life. I've managed to send a message of love! I felt a winner and I was ready to go.
I lied down on my bed, and positioned myself in a nice relaxed pose and I remembered to smile. I wanted to give a good impression to whomever found me. I closed my eyes and let go. A little light appeared inside, in the back of my head and with it... Nothing.
I never expected to wake up again. And since that morning on the 23rd of October 2007, my life has changed every single day. I feel the love more intense than ever and my only purpose in life is to do all my best to make this a better world.
The rest is on my blog and on that email to Eckheart I sent to you before. I would love to hear your opinion about this. During months, have thought I had a close to death experience with a very spiritual meaning. But what about the causes? Could be a tumor?
Anyway, I think I'm abusing your generosity in case you are reading this.
I see myself as the King of England and Mexico and married to David Beckham (Ha! that would be cool!), covered in fortune, money and power. I see myself healthy, strong and confident. I see the world living in peace with themselves, accepting all changes. I see nature taking its course. I see shifting of values. I see people healing. I see people happy. I see people in communion with nature forming one single energy. I see prosperity for everyone. I see people free of chains, however physical, mental or spiritual. I see people needing less and having more. I see people craving less and giving more. I see people fit. I see families together. I see children playing. I see people enjoying people. I see love all over. I see Love all over, I see LOVE all over !!! Waje Guru xXx 24-Oct-2008
Couldn't say about today nothing but "What a wondelful day". A brand new start. Can't be grateful enough with life and to everyone involved the magic that happened yesterday. Even thou the last day of April here in London was on of the darkest and rainiest I've experienced in a long time. Brought with it all the magic to make it "One of the happiest days of them all"
All started pretty normal, woke up early and headed to the gym. Wasn't very keen on the idea of leaving the comfort of my bed in such a dull day but there were some practical changes that decided to take to improve the quality of my life.
1.- To make the effort to exercise more often, at least 3 times a week 2.- To spend less time at home. Since I've been working from home all this time. Life had become a little secluded and boring. 3.- To take care of my health and eat much more healthier. eating fruit and more of the green stuff.
So after the gym, headed to the new "Coffee Republic" that just opened few days ago in Queensway, London. Met great people and at the end managed to spend at least 5 hours, working on the computer, drinking coffee and chatting with all the employees. Don't understand why it took so long for me to realize that simple changes make a HUGE differance in the world and life. Working on my blog and revising the document sent to Eckhart Tolle few days ago, was the way the day went by. Nothing really big or of huge importance so far had happened, but my day was full of baby, children, mums and dads, office workers and tourists smiles. And that by it self made a huge difference in the world to such a rainy day.
Then it came the out of nowhere the news that will give the biggest turn to my life. I was given the money and hence the opportunity to make iSportYou.com a reality. WOW!!! yeah! fuck yeah!!!!!!!!! phew, I'm speechless.
This came into my life in a completely unexpected way and when it was most needed
- My two credit cards were full to the top - had no money whatsoever to pay my rent - The bank had been charging me hundreds of pounds for going overdraft on my account - the checking account was £200 over the limit - No cash even to buy food - Had no job
But I was not worried. I trusted 100% something would happen, had some plan Bs prepared in case some action was needed, for example:
- Knowing that I couldn't pay my rent, decided to let my landlord know the situation and asking to give me one more month and take the rent from the deposit. - Sent an application to "Gaia House" to work as a gardener for a Buddhist community in Devon. - Decided to start looking for a job in personal training and Reiki healing.
And with this all changed. I can only say THANK YOU!!!!!!! .
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Music for me, has the magical power of to transmute the atmosphere it touches. In this case I'd like to share with you a list that I've been putting together with a compilation of songs that have filled my soul with its wonderful energy at some point or another in my life. My playlist contains a lot more songs but itunes don't reconized them all to be put them on iMix. Send me an email if you'd like to know the complete list.
I'd like to extend a special greatitude note to "Lara Fabian". She entered my life, in a totally amazing and unexpected way; whose music has accompanied me every day since my rebirth on the 21st of October, 2007. I wrote an email to her, but every time I try to send it to her production company or record company is been returned to me. I'll be eternally grateful If you can help this email find its way to her. This is the email. (There's an updated note at the end of the email that I attached yesterday, when I got the results back).
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TODAY, APRIL 16, 2008
I called to get my results and... without their treatment and completely contradicting the Dr's predictions (as they don't know yet that I stop treatment after only one week of had started it) who told me that whatever happens, that this would be the first test and that I couldn't expect a huge improvement, And today at 3:33pm local time in London, I got my results back with guess what, 205: it went from 106 to 205 the cd4 count in less than a month.
With this and with the test results to follow, I'm planning to built a case to show the truth about HIV and hopefully many more people dying at this moment from the same false diagnose, will realize that they are NOT sick start living and be happy and full of love once again. MAY THE FORCE BE WITH US
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Here you'll be able to follow the days and weeks after the "Big News" when I realize there is no killing virus, but killing treatments, ideas and life-styles. 2 years after been given a positive diagnosis, I decided to stop dying and start living.... The story of my life and ONE big decision.
I now believe that HIV is NOT the cause of Aids; A death sentence given with the promise of a not too bad future with the help of a chemotherapy like treatment that kills faster than it heals.
After so many days and nights into the deepest depression I've known. Where my career, my love life, my life at whole ended. I Needed to die to realize that no diagnosis was going to kill me. Strogle, until that faithful moment when I found out about the "Big News" and with that I got my life and the control over my own health back to me.
My intention with this is just to show that it can be done and is POSSIBLE to be 100% healthy... I don't mean FEEL healthy but to BE... Not mambo-jambo, no pills, no treatments, but reality and that's what I'm planning to do to prove with facts the truth about HIV/AIDS.
