I don't want ever to forget how easy was to become the human I was ment to be from the very begining, even thou right now it looks not so easy, I'm sure one day I'll look back and smile and cry for all I got; all I lost but most important for all I am. Eduardo, 6/26/2006
I see myself surrounded by people, we're dancing and having a party. People have learnt, to respect and care for their own. I see people knowing and joining the party. I see communities together. I see strangers communicating and bonding with each other. I see iSportYou in everybody tongue. I see iSportYou on TV. I see people joining. I see people participating. I see people giving. I see people healing. I see prosperity all over. I see abundance all over. I see love all over. I see Love all over. I see LOVE all over !!! Waje Guru !!! xXx
This is a copy sent to Dr Jill Bolte Taylor, Ph. D. describing my death experience. And now I want to share it with you. I think in a time of terrible stress and bad news, a Love story could serve as good news. What you think? This happened exactly one year ago, here in London...
Dear Dr Jill,
I would like to share with you the details of my "Stroke of insight" or what I call "The light at the end of the tunnel" in the Email to Eckhart, is very similar to what you describe when you are having the stroke, later found to be a tumor.
In my case, all started by feeling suddenly, a total disconnection to the external word in all senses, and then by starting to lose control over my body, but I was still very much conscious and making sense. I was still thinking and in control of my thoughts but what I was feeling was totally different to anything I have experienced before.
Suddenly felt like I was part of the whole room. All looked as made of the same material. No shadows but I could still distigush forms. Also hear and feel temperature but even though I could hear and feel, it was the same as with the sight. All was the same but distinguishing forms. Can't explain.
Then, felt it... I'm dying!... just knew it. It all clicked. Felt like a moment beyond mind. This is death and I'm about to go back home.
Fear started to take over and a terrible feeling of sadness overpower me. I didn't want to die!!!. And then, I could only think about my mother. -How sad would she be to see me dead like this. My room was very untidy and dirty, I hadn't showered in days, had been doing drugs for months and hated the fact of have finished my life like that. A looser.
I didn't know what to do, but I knew I needed to do something if I wanted to live or at least die fighting. I was not prepared to give up just like that. Started to get into a very calm and sad panic. And then I thought, -if I can hear sounds like banging the bed or clapping my hands, would I be able to listen to music?. All this was happening submerge in this homogenous world of oneness and absolute physical weakness. All colors blended but the forms were there. All sounded the same but distinguished different sounds and volumes and could feel temperature and texture.
The only thing I could do was, at least send a message to my mother, saying that I died in peace, that I love her so much and that I was sorry. The message could simply be, playing any of the mantras my mother has given me for meditation in my laptop and make it loop, so I can be found with it playing. I thought.
How was I going to do that? No idea. I could hardly move, my body, my arms felt so heavy and all my movements were tiny and stupid. It felt almost impossible to get up from bed, so I just started to push my legs first, then my upper body and then the hips. And like this, I made my way to the other side of the bed where my laptop was, probably moved no more that a meter but felt like a marathon. Once in front of the computer, a new challenge. I couldn't see the mouse, couldn't see the keyboard nor the screen. Nothing! All was the same. It was a white and smokish energy. Like a pixel room. All blended together, furniture, air and space.
Then I thought... -I will have to put the music and guide my hand by memory. I needed to remember if the program was on, if not, all was lost... Tried to remember, how would it look like on the screen, - I was crying, - Couldn't remember.
Started to move my finger over the pad and clicking all over, but nothing was happening. I prayed and asked for one more chance. Calmed myself down and started all over again by moving my finger and hopping the mouse was moving to the upper-right corner too. And then imagined the screen and took it from there.
It was a timeless moment that took for ever. Then, little by little, I started to loose more and more ability to move and to distinguish forms and textures. I knew the end was getting closer. I remember talking to myself, like the father I never had. - "Come on boy!, You can do it!.... Don't give up!, I know you can!, please... You're almost there. I'm here with you! I love you!"
And suddenly.... I clicked something and a beautiful music started to play. A mantra!. I was so happy, I was ready to die. I have never been so proud of my self like that day - And I cried... again, but this time of happiness and fulfillment, I have achieved the most important task of my life. I've managed to send a message of love! I felt a winner and I was ready to go.
I lied down on my bed, and positioned myself in a nice relaxed pose and I remembered to smile. I wanted to give a good impression to whomever found me. I closed my eyes and let go. A little light appeared inside, in the back of my head and with it... Nothing.
I never expected to wake up again. And since that morning on the 23rd of October 2007, my life has changed every single day. I feel the love more intense than ever and my only purpose in life is to do all my best to make this a better world.
The rest is on my blog and on that email to Eckheart I sent to you before. I would love to hear your opinion about this. During months, have thought I had a close to death experience with a very spiritual meaning. But what about the causes? Could be a tumor?
Anyway, I think I'm abusing your generosity in case you are reading this.
I see myself as the King of England and Mexico and married to David Beckham (Ha! that would be cool!), covered in fortune, money and power. I see myself healthy, strong and confident. I see the world living in peace with themselves, accepting all changes. I see nature taking its course. I see shifting of values. I see people healing. I see people happy. I see people in communion with nature forming one single energy. I see prosperity for everyone. I see people free of chains, however physical, mental or spiritual. I see people needing less and having more. I see people craving less and giving more. I see people fit. I see families together. I see children playing. I see people enjoying people. I see love all over. I see Love all over, I see LOVE all over !!! Waje Guru xXx 24-Oct-2008
